The Tutorial Is Too Hard Chapter 219:

Translator: JiuJiuBa

Proofreader: GodlyCash

[Ask me about your plan . ]

I take a long and gentle breath .

I don’t want to be perturbed .

Even if the God has been reading my mind .

I didn’t expect the God of Hope to know about the conversation I had with the God of Slow in her temple .

I thought that God could only read my superficial thoughts at best and would not know what occurred at other temples .

I finally understand why the God of Slow didn’t want to answer my questions .

The God of Hope’s laughter tickles my ears again .

He gave a soft smile after his chuckle .

The gentle and ambiguous murmur draws all my attention away .

“What do you mean?”

[You didn’t want me to ask me about your plans? My apologies . ]

“You’re sad?”

[Yes, I am . So why don’t you ask me about your plan?]

Pitiful .

No God would be sad for such a thing .

[Tell me . ]

There are two reasons .

First of all, there is no need to obtain the answer from other Gods if I’ve already gotten it from one God .

And the second one .

“I don’t think you will like my plan . ”

[Why do you think so?]

“The hope you understand is stronger than anything else in the world . Therefore you’d actually like the System’s constraints and wouldn’t be bothered by it . ”

I’ve been able to distinguish the Gods to some extent with my recent experiences .

Laughter echoes in my ears again .

[It’s rude to say so . I am hope . ]

I disagree .

That’s just a personal interpretation of it by the God in front of me .

[Your thoughts are unimportant, ignorant, and foolish, human . ]

“No, the only thing that matters are my thoughts . Just as you judge hope by what you believe . ”

The laughter around my ears stops .

Even the sound I didn’t recognize disappears, what remains is a silent world that spread endlessly .

[I have something to tell you . ]

“I’ve heard all I wanted to hear . Now I wish to proceed to the next stage . Please send me away . ”

A portal appears by my feet as soon as I finish my words .

I didn’t expect the portal to appear by my will regardless if the God permitted it .

I hurry to the portal and to move onwards, but the God of Hope murmurs .

[Are you going to run away?]

“…… . ”

I keep silent by the portal for a while .

The laughter of the God of Hope, which had disappeared, echoes again .

[Interesting . But it is inevitable . Your judgemental abilities are too bizarre to be human . ]

“Tell me . ”

[Now you dare to even command a God . ]

The God of Hope’s presence began changing .

His presence that had felt like a small, frail insect in an open space became overwhelming and oppressive .

I can’t stop the force from pressuring my body .

I dare not even think about it .

Because I am still in this space .

Now I am the fruit fly standing before a God .

[Yes, I wanted to treat you like a disposable toy just as you worried . When the time is right, I will drop a fishing line for you who continues to swim deeper and deeper into despair . But it seems that you won’t bite my hook even if you died . It’s incredible to be in despair and refuse the hope . This helped me understand you better than any other God . ] 

The God of Hope is sending out ferocious power .

The voice of the buzzing little insect has been replaced by that of a giant monster with tusks exposed roaring around my ears .

[How does it feel to be oppressed by my power? Are you not happy? Aren’t you excited about the height of the wall you are going to climb? ]

The roaring God of Hope continues .

[Of course, I know about your ambitions . All the gods of the Hundred Gods Temple know of it . I only ask you one question . Is this goal truly for that Lizardman? Be honest, perhaps it’s just for your self-satisfaction . If you really want to save that lizardman, it is not too late to become an apostle of the God of Slow . You should accumulate enough contribution points to trade with the Hundred Gods Temple . It’ll only take 300 years . ]

Hearing what the God of Hope said, I understand his intentions now .

 “… So this is what you wanted to tell me . ”

[Yes . You are accustomed to fighting in despair, so I’m going to give you a little hope . There is nothing more harmful to a deep-sea fish than light . ]

The God’s goal is clear .

It doesn’t matter if I’m unpersuaded right now .

What the God wants is to leave a scar in my heart .

When the day where I tire and give up comes, this scar will whisper to me and tempt me to take a shortcut more comfortable than the current one .

[I used to think so too before . But now that I see you, you won’t waver so easily . The God of Slow spoke of your essence, a moth that wants to be a fire . For you, despair is not the darkness, but the light . ]

The God’s vicious presence becomes as warm as the sun .

Then the God of Hope whispers with heat that would’ve melted my body .

[I’ll tell you what the God of Slow didn’t mention . ]

[As you thought, the poor souls who are locked in the system are not only goblins and lizardmen, but also Gods . ]

[There is certainly a God among us who wants to be released from that **** . You should also know who that is . ]

[You don’t have to feel anxious, go ahead . The most powerful God of the Hundred Gods Temples will support you . ]

* * *

I pondered about it for a while .

“I don’t understand . ”

[What?]

“I don’t understand why you told me this . ”

[Are you curious?]

“Yes . ”

The God of Hope’s presence returned to that equal to an insect . Then he chuckles again as if it’s very interesting .

Translator: JiuJiuBa

Proofreader: GodlyCash

[In that case, you’d want to grasp the essence of it through a phenomenon . It’s a great method because you tend to focus on results . Very well, I’ll tell you . Since your curiosity hasn’t been aroused, your contribution points were not used . ]

[You know, the number of Gods who are interested in you are decreasing . We’ve determined that your core essence is struggle . We know that you’ve set an unrealistic, dangerous, and difficult goal for yourself with no intentions of giving in . That’s why they abandoned you . ]

Because they think I’m just a moth that will burn down .

The God of Hope adds .

[Your analysis isn’t wrong . In fact, you also know that your goal is impossible to achieve, right? That’s why you would make it your objective . If it was a goal you can achieve in a few years, you wouldn’t have targeted it in the first place because life will become meaningless after it is achieved . This means that life before achieving that goal is also meaningless . ]

[The Gods think your goal is as absurd as your idea . The truth is, a mortal man who is fated for death will never accomplish such a task . But the problem is…]

[You’ve been trying to carry out that impossible goal the whole time . ]

[I know humans very well . I’ve seen how fragile they are and what they’ve craved for . So I know how many obstacles you have to overcome and the height of the mountains you have to climb in the future . ]

[The gods don’t value you greatly because there are other Hell Difficulty challengers in other dimensions . Even the God who supports you doesn’t think you’ll achieve your goals . In my eyes, you are very likely to fail, but I think about you more sincerely . Although the hope is slim, there is still a possibility for you . ]

After a long explanation, the God of Hope announces in a low voice .

[Now go . ]

The next moment, my body is moved from the Temple of Hope to Kirikiri’s field .

Before I could adjust to the sudden light, Kirikiri came running and screaming .

“Houjae!”

 * * *

Kirikiri is especially annoying today so I buy her a cake to stop her pestering me and send her away to sort out my thoughts .

I’m not yet certain of what the God of Hope truly desires .

But I still need to organize the information he gave me .

First, the God of Hope revealed that there are several Gods who are disgusted with the system’s control and sincerely support me .

From his performance, he hopes I can optimistically accept the Gods’ assistance .

Optimism will be a stumbling block to my future obstacles .

I look at Kirikiri .

She is eating cake while staring at me .

I can’t tell whether the cake is being eaten from the mouth or the nose .

The dialogue with the God of Hope made it clear that the Gods were also restrained by the system .

Kirikiri’s attention is no longer on the cake, she stares at me .

Most of the Gods think that I will one day renounce my goal or finally compromise with reality .

But there are also Gods who continue responding to and support my actions .

As the God of Hope said, they also want to be freed from the system’s constraints .

They must hope that I can create some variables in their favor .

“Right?”

Kirikiri giggles, then picks up the plate of cake as if nothing had happened .

The next one is information about the Holy Land .

But I don’t need to ask Kirikiri about it right now nor is it available or useful at the moment .

I just recall what the God of Hope had mentioned .

Next, I speculate how the Gods read my mind .

First of all, the God of Hope knows about the conversation between the God of Slow and me .

“That’s because Houjae is not an apostle of a God . As a challenger without any affiliations, your actions can be observed by all the gods in the Hundred God Temples . ”

“Yes, I know that . I just think it’s a little strange for him to be able to observe what happened in other temples . ”

“Gods don’t observe challengers by viewing the spaces in the tutorial . They observe by sharing challengers’ views and ideas through challengers’ point of view .

There was an error in my speculation .

I thought the Gods watched the challengers with something akin to CCTV, but in reality, their observation method is actually closer to peeping at the challengers’ thoughts through the first-person point of view .

There is one last clue left .

I know Gods can read my mind .

Because they will feel lost, happy, and sometimes angry because of my ideas .

And what they can read is limited to the surface of my deepest thoughts .

But I had misunderstood the extent that they could read .

Through many conversations with Gods, I realize that what they can read is just the surface content of my mind .

The reason for my illusion is Kirikiri .

I always regarded her as the standard for these Gods, which led me astray .

Compared to the Gods, Kirikiri can read my deepest thoughts .

The difference is obvious .

“Hehe . ”

“This is not a compliment . ”

It is not yet known whether she is just a manager or something else .

Anyway, even if I wanted to ask, I can’t pay the information fee .

“Yes!”

Regardless, I am sure now .

There is no way for these Gods to accurately read the thoughts that I deliberately hide .

I know that the goal I am challenging is an endless abyss .

But I’m no lunatic who dedicates themselves to meaningless challenges .

I started the challenge in order to achieve my goal .