There’s a Dragon Girl in the Desolate Sea: 379. The thirty-third dragon scale (1)

The thirty-third dragon scale (1)

Zhu Wan woke up from hysteria and smelled rotting food - this was the 27th day she lived alone, she slept for a long time, and now she finally woke up .

Zhu Wan got up from the ground and looked around. The ground was littered with food and various other debris. The instant noodle bowl was moldy on the table. In such a hot weather, there is no food that can keep intact.

She walked to the bathroom, the mirror mottled, reflecting an extremely haggard, pale, sick face. Zhu Wan almost couldn't recognize who the person in the mirror was. She felt crazy and awake again. It seemed that one second she wanted to collapse and scream, and the next second she swallowed all the grievances in her stomach.

She failed miserably.

Zhu Wan slowly began to clean up. She first sorted the garbage, put several large garbage bags, and then laboriously dragged it downstairs to throw it away - she lives on the fifth floor, the highest here is the fifth floor, there is no elevator, The reason why I live on the fifth floor is because the rent on the fifth floor is the cheapest, and Zhu Wan has lived here for several years. After throwing away the garbage, she returned to the house, cleaned the ground again, and started mopping it. After mopping, she lay down on the ground to wipe it, wiped it clean, and then used a dry mop to clean it up.

All the pots and pans were re-washed, and the dirty screens and curtains, as well as the sheets and duvet covers that had not been changed for a long time, were removed and cleaned, which took Zhu Wan an entire day. Finally, she took off the clothes that smelled of sweat and other peculiar smells, opened the shabby shower head, and poured cold water on her head. In the hot weather, Zhu Wan finally got a sense of being alive.

She took a shower, dried her hair, and sat down at the bedroom table. On the table were the low-quality and cheap pink head flowers that little girls would like, and the tin tanks that little boys liked. They were all bought by Zhu Wan at the street stall. They were worthless, but they were all she could get. .

Zhu Wan is a lunatic.

They all say so about her.

Unreasonable, hysterical, morbid. This is the term they gave to Zhu Wan, she was a crazy and unreasonable mad woman, so in the end she lost everything.

Zhu Wan looked at herself in the mirror. That person had the most bleak and empty eyes in the world. There was no burning soul in it. It seemed that a thin layer of medicine covered her eyes, making her pupils show A greyish white. It looked more like the eyes of a dead man. Zhu Wan touched her heart, and there was a heartbeat; she tried her breath, and she breathed; she probed her pulse again, and it was beating.

She really came alive.

From a carrion, came to life.

What should you do on your first day back from the dead? Zhu Wan cleaned the house, took a shower, changed into clean clothes, and sat in front of the dresser all night without sleeping. By dawn the next day, she looked more like a living person.

Her domestic mobile phone of more than 1,000 yuan has not been charged for a long time. Zhu Wan is a little useless. It took a long time to find the charger. As soon as it was turned on, there were many messages and calls. She stared blankly, and groped her slender fingers little by little. There were pictures of children in the dialog box. The little girl in a princess dress and the little boy in a small suit held hands, so cute and beautiful.

—Mom, Dad took my sister and I to the amusement park today, but I thought it would be nice if Mom was there.

——Mom, grandma said you were sick, are you healed? If so, can you take me and my brother home? We miss you so much!

——Mom, mom, do you see how beautiful my dress is today!

——Mom, I went to a museum, and I want to be a scientist in the future!

……

Zhu Wan burst into tears.

The children are still young, most of them are voices, milky voices, sometimes inarticulate, Zhu Wan is crying, but can't help laughing, her dry and depleted heart finally gets A little bit of redemption, she touched the two brothers and sisters in the photo, and sent them a message in a blurred vision: Mom misses you too.

Almost immediately, the children's phone calls. Zhu Wan picked it up, her mouth was open, but she didn't know how to speak - she didn't speak for too long, she was a little rusty. The children's joyful and innocent voices surrounded her ears, so she listened quietly without interrupting, until half an hour later, the excited children refused to hang up, so she changed people.

That is the person Zhu Wan deeply loved, but at the moment his voice is cold and he doesn't have much emotion, "I will take the children over this weekend, I hope you pack up, don't scare them again, I will take them first Have breakfast."

Zhu Wan hummed and hung up the phone. She put down her phone and turned her head to look out the window - where the sun was high up, illuminating all the filthy souls.

Today is Thursday, and in two days, the kids will be back.

Zhu Wan looked for the passbook and checked all her savings. She used to work in an ordinary private elementary school, and the salary was neither high nor low, but it was very difficult to support herself and two children, so she did not what to save. In addition, her mental state was very poor some time ago, and she could not be competent for teaching work at all, so the school dismissed her. In other words, Zhu Wan now has no source of income.

What does she compare to the children's fathers? He can provide a better life for the children, I heard that he already has a stable girlfriend, and can give the children a more stable and happier family, instead of...following a woman who doesn't know when to go crazy.

Zhu Wan started looking for a job online. She screened several companies that needed long-term and stable recruitment. Her current situation was not suitable for continuing to work in the education industry, so Zhu Wan set her sights on a coffee shop that only required half-day classes. , She has a high education and is not very old. She can meet people even after cleaning. She soon received a call from the boss. Zhu Wan found clothes suitable for going out and put on, and combed her hair.

The boss is a middle-aged man with a gentle attitude. Zhu Wan is paid hourly for shifts from 3:00 pm to 9:00 pm, 20 yuan per hour, and tips are extra. At this time when she needed to make money, Zhu Wan didn't care what kind of job it was, but she asked for five days off, and the boss agreed to her after thinking about it.

In this way, Zhu Wan waited until the weekend.

She was nervous and uneasy. She had bought the vegetables early and waited from early in the morning. When the knock on the door came at ten o'clock in the morning, Zhu Wan immediately ran over to open the door, and as soon as she lowered her head, she saw standing A pair of children at the door.

"Mom!"

Zhu Wan squatted down and hugged them tightly. The smell of milk and candy on the children's body was so clear that Zhu Wan never really realized that she was alive. She kissed the children's Face, "Who sent you here?"

"From my dad."

But he didn't come up, and Zhu Wan can understand that they should avoid suspicion. After all, they have no relationship other than their children. So she didn't feel sad, she just took the children's hands into the house and gently closed the door.

Zhu Wan noticed that the children wore a collar around their wrists, and she knew what it was for - to prevent her from going crazy and scaring the children or hurting them, so that the children's fathers would Show up immediately and take them away.

Not anymore.

Never again.

Zhu Wan would rather die than make the children sad.

"Toto? Why didn't you come?"

When she asked this sentence, Zhu Wan was a little scared. She could see the joy of the children, but she was also afraid that she would leave a serious psychological shadow on them, especially the precocious Toto, who is a very smart child.

My younger sister Momo is rather silly and sweet. She has been separated for almost a month. She has forgotten about that terrifying and scary mother, and just wants to roll around in her mother's arms.

Toto walked over slowly and grabbed one of Zhu Wan's fingers. Zhu Wan's eyes were sore. She slowly held the children and asked them to sit on the chairs. Small cakes to bake in the morning.

"Wow it's cake! Thank you mom!"

Zhu Wan kissed Momo's little face, and the little girl laughed stupidly. At this time, Toto coughed twice, after attracting Zhu Wan's attention, he pretended not to care and showed one side of his little face. Said to want her to kiss, but the implied meaning was strong. Zhu Wan smiled and kissed his tender cheek. Toto wiped his face in a fake manner, and said with disgust, "Mom is so naive, she even kissed her."

"Brother doesn't like being kissed." Momo shook her little feet. She also wore a beautiful princess dress today, with a small diamond crown on her head, she looked like a real little princess . "Auntie Fan wants her brother, but he doesn't want to."

Zhu Wan didn't ask who Momo was referring to as Aunt Fan, it had nothing to do with her, and she didn't care. She just wanted to see her children more and spend more time with her children during this stolen time. Apart from that, Zhu Wan asked for nothing. What justice, what love, what truth, what humiliation, are all too trivial compared to children.

Zhu Wan almost wanted to give them the best she could have to compensate them. She now understands that the role of "mother" is not irreplaceable. Children can have a new and better future. She should be happy and let go instead of keeping them by her side selfishly.

So when the appointed time came, she was going to send them away.

Toto stood at the door and suddenly asked, "Does my mother not want me and my sister?"

"How could that be?" Zhu Wan squatted down and looked at him softly, her son's big eyes like black grapes made her heart break. "Mom loves you, and this love will never change. But there were many things that Mom didn't do well before, which scared you, and Mom needs time to correct it. You can follow Dad and wait for Mom for a while, okay?"

Toto is precocious, he listened, nodded slowly, took his sister's little hand, and walked out calmly.

Zhu Wan only sent them to the first floor, and watched the two little babies go out. The car stopped in front of the building, and she didn't need to go there.

She turns slowly, her eyes a dead gray color.